The Legion, otherwise known as Keeping the voices at bay....

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Today the fan on my little laptop went bye-bye. What does this mean? This means that if I use the darn thing for very long it will overheat. Which with my luck will make the damn thing explode in my face. So if matters weren't bad enough, now I can only be online for small periods at a time. My one link with home, cut in ribbons.

Not that it matters much. At this point nothing much matters to me. I have coffee, I have cigarettes (which I find a little less appealing and a little more distasteful with every one). I have several piles of boxes that need to be unpacked. Hard to believe that just two days ago I was busy putting all that stuff into them, just to take it all back out now. I have family and friends to call to tell them I'm not coming home anymore. I have a phone call to make about the apartment I was to move into in 3 days. As if not going home was bad enough, now I have to cement that by making sure the world knows it.

And to make matters worse, I fear that I have unintentionally hurt people I care deeply for. My mood of late has been very black and when one of my dearest friends tried to get me out of it, I'm afraid I wasn't very nice to her. And then there's the one person in the world I would never want to hurt. And I fear I've done just that. I should have been born with a warning label: Beware! Close Proximity Will Result In Your Being Hurt!

"After all is said and done, life still sucks. And I'm still here."