The Legion, otherwise known as Keeping the voices at bay....

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Can you say "growth spurt"? I gained about two inches between the time I went to bed and the time I got up this morning. If I didn't look pregnant before, I certainly do now.

And tomorrow is my last day of work before I go on leave. I'm a bit relieved about that. It's going to be nice to be able to relax again. Especially since I know I won't be doing much of that once the baby is here. I swear if I had to work any longer I might be insane before the baby gets here because of all the stress.

I have so much to do before the baby gets here. I haven't even bought anything for it yet. Though I have been looking around. Keeping my eyes open for the best deals and such. I feel so damn lazy though. I know lots of women who had everything they needed bought already. Makes me feel lacking somehow.

Baby has been moving around so much lately. More so when I'm alone, like the baby knows it's just the two of us and wants to remind me that I'm not really alone. I've started reading aloud to baby the last few days. Though I'm not really sure what to read to it. I bought a copy of Wizard of Oz, which was always one of my favorites when I was little. I'm also going to order a copy of the Original Pooh stories, before Disney went and ruined them.

It seems like my whole life is revolving around the baby these days. It's all I really think about. I can't even concentrate on my writing. Everytime I try I just start daydreaming about holding the baby. I don't think anything has ever affected my writing this much, not even depression. Even Legion is eerily quiet these days. Where I would once get ten or more remarks flying through my skull a day, I get maybe two a week now. It worries me a little because Legion's been around a long time. It's my muse, albeit a most annoying and argumentative one. I hope It's not leaving me for good. I'd hate to have this baby, something I've wanted so badly for so long, only to lose my writing. It's one of the few outlets I have.

I'm probably worrying over nothing. But it does kind of scare me.