The Legion, otherwise known as Keeping the voices at bay....

15:13

So right now life is pretty boring round here. You'd think it wouldn't be what with a baby soon joining us. You'd think we'd have plenty to do with making ready for the little one. You'd be wrong. So much has been put on hold that I really have no idea how we're going to be ready when the baby does get here.

And because I'm in one of those moods, and I so miss my lists. Here's a list of all the things that still need to be done.

find a new place to live [which involves me finishing the letter to C&C and getting it submitted]
move into new place [I'm so not looking forward to moving all our crap, let alone packing it all]
get baby's room ready [I still have no idea if the baby is even going to have it's own room when we move or if I'm going to be sharing]
buy all the baby stuff [and I do mean all: crib, stroller, car seat, diapers, clothes, breast pump...]
my baby shower [which means keeping on Lisa's ass about this cause she has a tendency to forget things]
hospital tour and pre-registration [just scheduling this may be a huge headache with Junior working such long hours]

As you can see, I have a lot of crap to look forward to. And no idea if any of it is even going to get done. It sucks because there are things I could do but can't because other items on the list haven't been done yet. I can't really buy anything yet because there's no where to store things. I refuse to put any of it in the basement because with the wet weather we've been having it'll probably get flooded on.

As it is, I still don't know if we'll be able to get a new place before the baby gets here. If I think about that too much I end up having an anxiety attack like you wouldn't believe. It's already happened more than once and once they start I can't seem to stop it.

I really don't want to move off the reserve. There's just too much involved in moving off the reserve. Too many worries that I really don't think I can handle right now. I would much rather stay here where I know if I need it, help is right around the corner.

Now that the election is over maybe I can start getting things done. I waited until now because it would have been kind of useless to submit requests to Chief and Council when they have other topics on their minds, like getting re-elected. Now that it's all settled I'll be able to submit my request for housing. And even though I'm more worried about being approved for it, I'm just as worried about getting into a new place in time. If they give me one of the new houses, who knows if it will be done in time.

Time. That's what it all boils down to isn't it. There just doesn't seem to be enough time. And if I go into labor early, well I'm trying not to consider that possibility. Everything is just so frustrating right now, not being able to do anything.